This time of the year often calls for reflections and resolutions. We celebrate and we grieve. We pull things apart, weigh up on past resolutions. We organise our thoughts and check in on our will and desires. We set intentions and we formulate (or seek?) resolutions...
When I left what I now label as "The System" in 2008, someone said to me, "Now the world is your oyster...", something stirred within me amidst the mental and emotional chaos I was in during that time. Not knowing when my next paycheck is, where I'm going, and what I'm going to do. However, a glowing amber inside of me was stoked into a little fire. I was lost but I also felt the immensity of possibilities in store, of journeying to places I haven't been, experiencing what life is as a wanderer. The thought of leaving behind my structured world in an urban Disneyland and setting foot into somewhere foreign and unknown was overwhelming but intoxicating... I wanted to find an identity that goes beyond what was written on my business card. I wanted to satiate my wanderlust!
In hindsight, it was as if it were at that very time that I truly opened myself to what life had in store for me. 8 years have gone by. Every year-end reflection I see a close and a beginning of another transformational chapter of my life. I started to see the serendipity of events unfolding, people coming in and out of my life, how the decisions I make could throw everything that I thought I'd already knew out of the window. And I started to finally understand this overused buzz line - "You are exactly where you need to be!"
In January 2015, I went on a hike that changed my life. All of my wandering plans of being a wanderluster were sidetracked by a man who offered to walk alongside me for a while. And in the last year of our journey together, I have figured out a few things, as listed below, in no particular order.
1. That home for me now is being with someone whom I can rest my heart upon. It is a place where I can wear this heart on my sleeve, and not be afraid.
2. That being a free spirit is not about being able to do everything I want without a care in the world, because every action we make has consequences. Being free is the ability to stand on my feet, be true to my heart even if the ground beneath me has crumbled. It is the faith that keeps me from wavering when life throws massive curve balls at me. It is the courage to break open the shell of my heart even when it's been sugarcoated with ego and pride.
3. That "wanderlusting" is not just about uncovering the places on this planet but also unearthing the depths of my boundless heart and mind, and know that there is just so much more I can offer... as a friend, a partner, a teacher, a person.
In 2015, I settled into my new home and life in Chiang Mai. Lots of groundwork has been done and seeds of new endeavours sowed. Another brand new year awaits, brimming with promises and excitement. I will be unveiling more of what I plan to offer to keep nurturing the spirit of wanderlusting, balanced by a grounded love of inner journeying. Please stay tuned for news regarding a few retreats and training programs that are currently in the pipeline.
Here's to all the beautiful souls, fellow wanderlusters, friends I haven't met -
“We wanderers, ever seeking the lonelier way, begin no day where we have ended another day; and no sunrise finds us where sunset left us. Even while the earth sleeps we travel. We are the seeds of the tenacious plant, and it is in our ripeness and our fullness of heart that we are given to the wind and are scattered.” ~ Kahlil Gibran
Happy New Year!
Yogini, Movement Facilitator, Yoga & Bodywork Therapist, Wanderluster, Homemaker, Student...